July 31, 2010 – An Oversight

I must be honest.  I was angry.  To say that I was doubtful  would be a gentle underestimate…

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‘How could you?’ repeatedly went through my mind.

‘Why?’ I whispered fearfully into my thoughts.

‘Where were you?’ I asked with simmering fury.

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You, of all people, are supposed to be watching now.  I thought I knew this to be true.   I believed this with all of my heart.  Well, then, where were you?

And of all people… or angels… or forces… how did you not protect him?  I thought you were watching.  I had faith in this.

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Despite all of my questioning, wrangling in my mind, no answer came.  I searched.  Not in vague symbols or random hints.  I wanted an answer.  Some kind of  explanation for your oversight. 

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And you let me wait.   And then I realized. 

 

There are so many ways this could have gone so horribly wrong. 

Inches from permanence. 

Centimeters from fatal.  

And now I absolutely know…

 

You were most definitely here.   You certainly had your eye on things.  You were watching  all along.

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And so, for today, - thank you.   The oversight was indeed mine.  

~K