Wednesday, April 7, 2010

April 6, 2010 – Goodbye, my Hero

My grandfather passed away on Easter.   I attended and spoke at his funeral today.  Among many other noted items, the following was revealed and seemed an appropriate positive lesson to note for today.

My grandfather was in WWII in the U.S. Army.  He landed on the beaches of Normandy on the 3rd day.   He was involved in the Battle of the Bulge.  He never spoke of the war or his time there.  It wasn’t something he wanted to discuss any further.

We found out, going through my grandfather’s things, this week, that he had been awarded 4 bronze medals in WWII.   These are the 4th highest honor; medals given to someone for heroic or meritorious achievement.  He received not one, but four. 

He never told anyone this.  My grandmother and father found these details while going through his discharge papers this week.   We don’t know what he did to receive these.  No one knows a single detail.  We are certainly proud and yet, not completely surprised.

This is how he lived his life.  He was good, without expectations.  He was humble.  He was strong.

Goodbye, my hero.  Thank you for one last lesson.

~K

Monday, April 5, 2010

April 6. 2010 – Going Home

How will I go on with you gone this way?  How will I come up with a song to say I love you….

 

I will laugh more and worry less.  I will tell my children about you and smile and not cry when I do.  I will live life, but not be reckless.  I will always love Doris and visit her often. I will work hard.  I will value moments with my own father… and others. 

I will say my goodbyes today and then enjoy life and the lives of my children as fully as I can each day.  I will remember and love you always.

~K

April 5, 2010 – Goodbyes

Goodbye and thank you. 

Thank you for giving me so many positives.  Thank you for making my life so much more special.  Thank you for making me the person I am today, a better person than I would have ever been able to be without your influence.

~K

Sunday, April 4, 2010

April 4, 2010 – Happy Easter

Bright colors…

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Beautiful moments.

 

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Happy Easter.

~K

Saturday, April 3, 2010

April 3, 2010 – Making Memories

Another little girl….
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And her grandpa…
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Spending time…
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By the water…
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Made my heart…
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Smile softly today.
~K

Friday, April 2, 2010

April 2, 2010 – A life of Goodness

“If I didn’t love you so much, I don’t think it would be hurting so badly to say goodbye…” –

There’s the positive… I love him so much.  Without that, this pain would not be so bad, which would be nice right now, but then who would I be?   What would I have missed out on?

I’m grateful for all of the goodness our lives together gave. 

~K

Thursday, April 1, 2010

April 1, 2010 – Getting there

Today I am trying harder to do better.

Today I pointed out a yellow mustang to my boy.  We played with trucks.  And I really played along.   We talked of tools and I watched a baby face light up with enjoyment when I told him the fix it stories of his great grandpa and tools.

Today, I did not let my daughter see me cry.   I told her I was just as excited about the Easter bunny.  And I am.  We celebrated her last day of school this morning.  Then sent her to school giggling.

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I will take Easter and notice the sparkle in their eyes.  It is a time I cannot get back.  I will make an April Fool’s Day joke with her before she goes to sleep.  I will dance tomorrow with both of them.

I am doing differently.  Grieving differently.  Trying to regain footing and I think slowly getting there… or at least moving in the right direction.

~K